February 1, 2009

First Post -- Questions for the New Year


It's February 1st, and this is my first post of the 2009.

I was thinking about that this morning...I've been blogging since 2006, writing regularly, but sometimes I let it sit. It is that I have little to write; few insights to share. It is that I have urge to pen; no thoughts spinning around looking for a place to land.

So, today, as the the city thaws, the ice melts, and the snow slides off of my slate roof and crashes decidedly to the ground, I feel this fog of tentativeness lifting.

When I haven't anything to write, it is that I have no clarity, I have no attachment to what is now, I have too much work and not enough decompression. I have just enough energy to complete the tasks and hand and move on to the next.

And, I question that. I question the value in that. I look deep inside myself for my own remedy as this world is not going to wrap it up and leave it as a sparkling package on my front door. At least not obviously. As I move into this new year, I approach it with questions: Who am I? What do I value? How do I ensure I move in harmony and joy with this world?

The answers are only a few moments of quiet away.